''at one point in time - part 1''

on one Tuesday evening of March 29, 2011

AS BLUE AS IT GETS

when endless pointless meetings have become a custom

when an absence of a glass to accompany a bottle of mineral water has become a big big matter

when u have to try soooo hard to laugh at a joke

when u have zero respect yet an abundance of fear towards your superior

when printing is one of your main job (the other main job is to put the print result into a map)

when there’re sooo many small stuff to deal with until at one point u don’t even know what your real contribution is

when the act of thinking is not much required

when substance over form is merely meaningless words

when constantly bombarded with that non stop high pitch tone

one day u realize

that all your motivation and passion has been swept away.. nothing left..

and u know... that self realization is two words not known in that environment

and when u realise.. that u can no longer hold that straight fake face

u think u’re strong enough.. but u’re wrong..

u think u’re stoic.. but hey, i just found out ‘bout that one word.. never knew it existed..

and now u find yourself screaming

screaming to yourself

hang in there!

hang in there!

just a little bit more..

if God is willing, u’ll have a year to breathe the air of freedom

freedom which will be filled with much hardwork and competition

but at least u know for sure that it would be good for u

and then u’ll come back to that cage

for another two years

and when the two-year ends

will u have enough courage to find another place?

or would u be too weary to face anything?

who knows..

all u know that

right now, u have to fight for that one year of freedom

right now..

wanna know what happened 10 months later? 
see http://ritaaza.blogspot.com/2012/01/personal-blog-one-point-in-time-part-2.html