note to self

26 July 2020

“in a truly peculiar time of covid-19 pandemic”

still staying at home

working from home

spending weekends at home

for nearly 4 months now

well, this is a note to myself when this is all over

when this is all over..

remember to try to enjoy your life better

live your life

try new things

travel more

pay attention more to your friends, instead of your phone

be present in the moment

feel your life

and when u get to do that one thing you love the most.. which is traveling

remember to...

savor every second of the minute

feel the sand on your feet when u’re at the beach..

watch every sunset.. even on a cloudy day

take a deep breath.. feel the fresh air

embrace the atmosphere

enjoy... 
feel...

before it’s too late

or..

is it already too late?



26 july 2020

9.37PM

“in an truly weird time of covid-19 pandemic”

random thoughts on June 20, 2020

“in a truly weird time of covid-19 pandemic”

I’ve been at home for nearly 3 months due to the pandemic

I live in an apartment.. and there’s just the two of us, me and my husband

It feels strangely calming and refreshing...

Not having to do small talks at the office

Not having to fake a smile at the office

Being given a total freedom to be “quiet”

(because in the office it’s like u’re being punished every day for being too quiet)

It feels strangely calming and refreshing..

and I complain less

a lot less

and I become calmer

I thought I was gonna be very bored

I thought I was gonna be restless..

Because I can’t do my favorite thing which is traveling

I can’t go visit the museums and the malls and all those instagrammable cafes

Turns out that I can control the boredom

And feel fine that I’m not able to go out

Even now when people are screaming new normal and suddenly storming the malls

and go to the streets to exercise (for a trending healthy lifestyle) and buy bicycles to bike to work or to bike wherever 

while the number of covid-19 cases is still increasing.

I’m still at home

Not feeling the urge to go to the malls

Or meet up with friends

I’m an introvert

And I’m figuring out that my life at the office used to drain my energy so much it hurts

All the pretending.. all the “have to speak up and be seen”... being forced to attend all those social events... talk to people when I don’t want to... smile to people when I don’t feel like smiling..

That’s why I’ve always needed that “traveling” or “trips” or "weekend getaways" every other week

Now that I’m always at home, I feel so much at peace

But 

it does make me wonder..

Will I have enough strength to go back to the office when the time comes?