independence...

17 August 2020

4.53PM

Getting a bit restless this past few weeks

Things aren’t going well with this 'work from home 24/7' thing..

Before covid, whenever I feel like I need to vent, I used to go traveling with a small group of friends

To recharge, to find strength to face another day at the office

But now I can’t do that anymore

Sigh..

Well..

I’ve always felt that I don’t belong (since my first years working in that place)

Mostly because of all the extroverted behaviours that I have to endure

Working in an environment that rewards extroverted behaviour

Makes me mentally-exhausted

Really.. there’s no room from introverts

Working from home for about 5 months now

I realize more and more that this is not the place for me

And I really really wanna get away from all this

But..

There’s nothing I can do

I have to face it and live with it

Coz I need the money..

Sigh..

Well, this is august 17^th

So I have to say: Happy independence day!

Hope I can feel free and independent someday

Hope someday..

I can make money by doing something that I love

Hope someday..

I can be my true self

Without ever feeling “not good enough”

Without always being overlooked and undervalued

At the end of the day..

I just wanna be surrounded by genuine people

Is it too much to ask?