taking it one day at a time

23 april 2016

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it’s been exactly one month since ‘’it’’ first occurred

it really is a wake up call for me

I see it clearly now..

how he would (or would not?) react..

how she.. acts like the way she’s been acting this whole time.. since way back when...

how I had always ignore what’s happening to her

how I always run away.... refusing to search for any kind of knowledge..

not trying to figure things out..

not brave enough to face the problem..

now here I am

forced to face the (ugly?) truth

forced to try to solve it

alone

the best way I can

no more excuses

no more running

it’s gonna be so damn hard

but I have to make it somehow

somehow..

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this year has been very hard for me

too hard

I fear what the next 8 months have in store for me

I fear that I’m not gonna be strong enough

I fear that something inside of me..

will explode.. one day..

and I fear that then, it will be too late...

I am

petrified..

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well isn’t it funny

how life takes its course

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