random thoughts in mid-march

#1

phase one...

whining to family and close friends

phase two...

more whining to family and close friends

phase three...

yearning for attention

feeling the need to prove something

phase four...

speaking up

making sure that people know when u don’t like a certain situation

hoping to get some respect

phase five...

mentally exhausted

realizing that there’s no point to all of the above

and realizing that there’s no need to prove anything to anyone

phase six...

ignorance

trying to ignore

while aiming to become fake

and hoping to find inner peace...

it’s mid-april..

i found out that I’m still not able to hold back.. to not care.. to ignore..

it’s funny

it’s funny how difficult it is for me to be ignorant

#2

I hate fake people

I really do

But sometimes I feel like I’m surrounded by fake people

People who won’t (or can’t) differentiate between being fake and being nice

I hate fake people

I really do

But sometimes the situation forces me to wear my fake face.. and to wear my best fake smile..

I hate fake people

I really do

I don’t wanna be one of them

I really don’t

But how to avoid it?

#3

She has just decided

To be happy

And to not care

Knowing that she’ll never be the one

Knowing that she’ll never be prioritized

Knowing that she’ll never be given full respect

Knowing that she’ll just have to suck it up

She has just decided

That everything will be okay

As long as she can do the thing she loves the most

Anytime she needs to

Coz all that matters is..

For her to be happy