wrong

Feels so wrong when u have to attend a meeting in bali..
Bali has this holiday vibe all over its place..
Feels so wrong to have a shariah-related meeting in bali..
Bali is far far away from shariah-compliant..

And it's wrong in so many ways when I am the one that's attending this meeting..

Feels so wrong when u're getting stuck between the wants of two different institutions..
And u end up doing a job that's supposed to be done by the other institution..

A job which was not for u to do in the first place..

A job which makes your head aches..
A job that you will never get credit for..
A job that u have to do by yourself with nobody else neither helping nor caring..
A job that takes away all of your time..

Another person’s job..

It's so wrong.. while u're so busy finishing this job, u're slowly being left out from the rest of your own team.. 

Coz they're doing the job that they're supposed to do, the one that is in their job desc..
Unlike you..

So..

how're u supposed to stay positive..

how're u supposed to stay positive..

Well, I'm fully aware of all the "positive thinking" theories..
How u're supposed to concentrate on the benefits u can get out of this chaos..
How u're supposed to find the "happy" amongst all those head and heart aches..

But hey..
I'm really not the positive type..
I'm just human..
So I say.. all thoses positive theories are easier said than done.. It really is..
And even though I already tried to stuck so many positive words in my mind, still deep down inside, I still feel like sh*t

Pullman Legian, Bali.. 15 nov 2014.. 10.33 AM.. room 1325