only today

11.07.2016

only today

i think today is the first time I can feel calm and relaxed and relieved

the first time since the start of this year

not having to worry

not feeling anxious

far from depressed

today..

life is being kind to me

i’ve just got back from a much needed 3-day vacation

mom is doing ok... gaining weight.. the delusion never stops but she’s much much calmer nowadays

work is also being good to me today

i can only speak for today

only for today

coz i know i have a long and bumpy road ahead of me

don’t know how I’ll survive another episode that will surely come my way

so today..

i’m feeling grateful..

for being able to feel calm and relaxed and relieved

although my heart is still worrying that ‘’calm and relaxed and relieved’’ is too good to be true for me

not knowing when the storm will hit me.. and hit me hard..

‘’so don’t get  too relaxed’’, my heart says

yet i’m still grateful

i’m grateful for today

i can only speak for today

i can only speak for today

coz I only have the strength to live my life..

one day at a time

one day 
at a time