don't care

suatu sore menjelang akhir Februari 2016

i don’t care .... 2nd edition

1st edition --> http://ritaaza.blogspot.co.id/2013/01/i-dont-care.html 

different person

totally different situation

but one thing remains the same..

i don’t care

''aku ga peduli''

aku ga peduli sama dia

ga mau berusaha utk peduli

dan ga mau pura-pura peduli

katanya, dia juga lagi kecewa, lagi sedih, lagi butuh teman

tp knapa jadi aku yg harus ngertiin dia

knapa jadi aku yg harus memaklumi dia

we hardly even spoke to each other before all this happened

knapa tiba-tiba aku harus jadi temennya dia

''dia negatif banget''

aku juga bukan orang yang positif

ga pernah bisa jadi orang yang positif

maka ketika aku bisa bilang seseorang itu negatif

maka berarti dia amat sangat negatif

dan entah kenapa dia sangat semangat utk men-share kenegatifannya itu

‘’I'm only telling you this for your own good’’, he says

Well, whatever your motivation is, I need u to back off for now

Coz I got my own problem

And coz I’m still trying to heal myself

And I just simply don’t have the time and the energy to respond to that kind of negativism

''cuekin aja''

bener

bener banget

tapi..

easier said than done

when words are already written and spoken,

I cannot pretend that I didn’t read or hear it

I just need him to back off

Coz I don’t care about him

''aku jahat?''

entah..

mungkin..

but I’m just human..

I’m no angel..

And I just don’t want to care

Meanwhile.... I think I’m getting grumprier and grumpier by the day

So first and foremost, I have to take care of myself.. and calm myself down