Showing posts with label my story. Show all posts
Showing posts with label my story. Show all posts

Wednesday, May 17, 2023

Happy Birthday!

Today I’m feeling grateful
Grateful for my health (for my cardiac ablation which went well)
Grateful for my family
Grateful for my closest friends
Grateful for being able to get out of a toxic environment (one year and 3 months is more than enough)
Grateful for being able to finally find some peace of mind

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No need to count how many birthday wishes
No need for birthday celebration
I’m just grateful for being able to feel grateful

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Happy birthday!
You have countless things to be grateful for!
 
May 17, 2023 

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The sky grows dark
The black over blue
Yet the stars still dare
To shine for you

from The Midnight Library – Matt Haig


Saturday, January 22, 2022

monthly travel highlights - from jan 2019 to jan 2020

These are my monthly travel highlights during the period of Jan 2019 to Jan 2020

Jan 2019
A weekend trip to Pekalongan. From Jakarta to Pekalongan by train. 
To do: buy batik,  eat good food, stay at a lovely hotel: the sidji hotel.


Feb 2019
Exploring the heritage city of Lasem, 3-hour driver from Semarang.
To do: stroll around at desa karangturi, buy batik, and buy more batik :D


Mar 2019
In awe of the beauty of Zaanse Schans, Holland


Apr 2019
A 3-day trip to Pontianak, West Kalimantan. 
Must do: try all the traditional coffee shops (warung kopi) scattered around the town

May 2019
Savoring every second at Maya Sanur Bali
Must do in Sanur: sunrise at Pantai Karang

Jun 2019
Having fun at Talang Indah Pajaresuk, Lampung
Must do in Bandar Lampung: try pempek at different places

Jul 2019
Catching up on my writing.. at The Trans Luxury Hotel, Bandung





































Aug 2019
At Baluran National Park, one of the must-visit places in East Java



Sep 2019
A serene morning at Sanak Retreat, Bali. Loooveee this place. 

Saturday in Jakarta, at a latin-argentinian cuisine restaurant located at Menteng. Sudestada. 


Nov 2019
Soaking up the sun at the glittering Lake Linow, Tomohon, North Sulawesi

Dec 2019
Another visit to Bali.. the beach of Ritz-Carlton Nusa Dua Bali



Jan 2020
Visiting the beautiful Trang An, Vietnam





Saturday, January 2, 2021

what travel means to me...


Not being able to travel this year makes me wonder what travel really means to me..


For me
traveling 
is definitely not only about the instagram feed :P

For me
traveling
is the most effective way for me to recharge
is about trying and exploring new things
is about meeting new people with different perspectives
is about testing your patience
is about knowing yourself better
is about experiencing other culture
is about finding new places.. hidden gems
is about laughter and enjoying life
is about sunrises and sunsets
is about visiting places people never heard of
is about adventure
is about trying to be a better version of yourself
is about learning to appreciate life more

For me
traveling
is never only about having the need to visit trending places
 
last but not least, for me, traveling is a mean to escape from the superficial people at the office

well, hope we can start traveling again soon! coz I need it!!


Thursday, December 31, 2020

happy new year 2021

 31.12.2020   3.54pm


We’re at the end of the year 2020

The year that we’ll remember for the rest of our lives

A very very strange year. The year COVID-19 rules the world.

I practically spent 10 months at home. Can’t go to the office, can’t go to the mall, can’t go to the  coffee shop, can’t go anywhere

And it’s very excruciating for me, not being able to do the one thing that I love the most: traveling

 

Anyway, during that 10 months, I learned more about myself

How introverted I am

 

How I hate office politics

How I despise the blur line between small talks and lies.. between “being nice” and lying

How it seems that hypocrisy is a normal thing and even encouraged

How I want to quit working but can’t coz I need the money :P

 

And how I’m dreading the day when I have to go back to the office and forced to do all the small talks face to face.. no place to hide. Haha.. (well, let’s not worry about that today).

 

Today, I can only hope

Hope that everything will be better in 2021

Hope I can start traveling again soon

And hope I can survive the never ending office politics with all the superficial people in it

 

Most of all, hope that I can enjoy and appreciate life more

Meaning, more traveling and more time spent with friends (true friends) & family

And worry less about my office life... coz it’s just not worth it

 

.. Welcoming the new year with hope


Saturday, August 22, 2020

independence...

17 August 2020
4.53PM

Getting a bit restless this past few weeks
Things aren’t going well with this 'work from home 24/7' thing..
Before covid, whenever I feel like I need to vent, I used to go traveling with a small group of friends
To recharge, to find strength to face another day at the office
But now I can’t do that anymore
Sigh..

Well..
I’ve always felt that I don’t belong (since my first years working in that place)
Mostly because of all the extroverted behaviours that I have to endure
Working in an environment that rewards extroverted behaviour
Makes me mentally-exhausted
Really.. there’s no room from introverts

Working from home for about 5 months now
I realize more and more that this is not the place for me
And I really really wanna get away from all this

But..
There’s nothing I can do
I have to face it and live with it
Coz I need the money..
Sigh..

Well, this is august 17th
So I have to say: Happy independence day!

Hope I can feel free and independent someday
Hope someday..
I can make money by doing something that I love

Hope someday..
I can be my true self
Without ever feeling “not good enough”
Without always being overlooked and undervalued


At the end of the day..
I just wanna be surrounded by genuine people

Is it too much to ask?



Sunday, July 26, 2020

note to self

26 July 2020
“in a truly peculiar time of covid-19 pandemic”

still staying at home
working from home
spending weekends at home
for nearly 4 months now

well, this is a note to myself when this is all over

when this is all over..
remember to try to enjoy your life better
live your life
try new things
travel more
pay attention more to your friends, instead of your phone
be present in the moment
feel your life


and when u get to do that one thing you love the most.. which is traveling
remember to...

savor every second of the minute
feel the sand on your feet when u’re at the beach..
watch every sunset.. even on a cloudy day
take a deep breath.. feel the fresh air
embrace the atmosphere

enjoy... 
feel...

before it’s too late

or..
is it already too late?



26 july 2020
9.37PM

Thursday, July 2, 2020

“in an truly weird time of covid-19 pandemic”

random thoughts on June 20, 2020


“in a truly weird time of covid-19 pandemic”



I’ve been at home for nearly 3 months due to the pandemic
I live in an apartment.. and there’s just the two of us, me and my husband

It feels strangely calming and refreshing...

Not having to do small talks at the office
Not having to fake a smile at the office
Being given a total freedom to be “quiet”
(because in the office it’s like u’re being punished every day for being too quiet)

It feels strangely calming and refreshing..
and I complain less
a lot less
and I become calmer

I thought I was gonna be very bored
I thought I was gonna be restless..
Because I can’t do my favorite thing which is traveling
I can’t go visit the museums and the malls and all those instagrammable cafes



Turns out that I can control the boredom
And feel fine that I’m not able to go out

Even now when people are screaming new normal and suddenly storming the malls
and go to the streets to exercise (for a trending healthy lifestyle) and buy bicycles to bike to work or to bike wherever 
while the number of covid-19 cases is still increasing.

I’m still at home
Not feeling the urge to go to the malls
Or meet up with friends

I’m an introvert
And I’m figuring out that my life at the office used to drain my energy so much it hurts
All the pretending.. all the “have to speak up and be seen”... being forced to attend all those social events... talk to people when I don’t want to... smile to people when I don’t feel like smiling..
That’s why I’ve always needed that “traveling” or “trips” or "weekend getaways" every other week

Now that I’m always at home, I feel so much at peace


But 
it does make me wonder..


Will I have enough strength to go back to the office when the time comes?