graduated!

28 July 2012 11.49 pm, singapore time

1 day after the graduation ceremony

Actually, they call it commencement ceremony, not graduation ceremony

They call it commencement, because this is supposed to be a new beginning

Beginning of a new career?

Maybe for some, but definitely not for me. Not yet I hope.

My happiness of graduating has faded away a little bit

Coz i had to go back to the starting point, the same point which i left one year ago

For me it’s like.. What’s the purpose of the one-year study?

Well, i’m still proud though

To be able to get my master degree

It’s been a great journey for me

I’ve manage to leave my comfort zone for one year

Get some new perspective

Be reminded of the values I have deep inside my heart

Be reminded that change is good

That hardwork is good

That continuous learning is a must

Listening to a speech made during the ceremony..

The man said:

how u know whether u’re progressing or not in your career, is to ask yourself these 3 questions:

1.  Are u learning?

2.  Are u contributing?

3.  Are u having fun?

For me, the answer is still no, no, and no.

I wish I can runaway, to try to change the answers to yes, yes, and yes (i know the last question is the hardest one, but nothing is impossible, right?)

But I can’t run. My feet are tied.

So what I can do right now, is to congratulate myself.

And hope, that i will still have my values until next year.. and many years to come.

Coz that office is no good for me right now

No good

Anyway, congratulations!

Master of Science in Wealth Management, class of 2012 : )

Epilogue:

Ada orang di kantor ngomong ginike gw (dia ngomong dalam rangka menghibur gw yg kecewa krn ga jadi pindah ke departemen lain).

Dia bilang: ‘’masih mending di sini rita. Daripada di tempat baru, kamu harus belajar lagi, kamu ga kenal ama siapa2, harus kenalan lagi ama semua orang, adaptasi ama budayanya.. dsb dsb..’’

Wanna know what i think when she’s saying those words in front of my face?

I was thinking: I don’t wanna be like u. I don’t wanna be like u at all.

Life. Isn’t it about learning? About changes? About adapting? About meeting new people and learning from them? About conquering fear? About facing challenges?

Hope I will always have these feelings in the future. Right now, I just have to keep myself sane and be in touch with the outside world.