AS BLUE AS IT GETS
when endless pointless meetings have become a custom
when an absence of a glass to accompany a bottle of mineral water has become a big big matter
when u have to try soooo hard to laugh at a joke
when u have zero respect yet an abundance of fear towards your superior
when printing is one of your main job (the other main job is to put the print result into a map)
when there’re sooo many small stuff to deal with until at one point u don’t even know what your real contribution is
when the act of thinking is not much required
when substance over form is merely meaningless words
when constantly bombarded with that non stop high pitch tone
one day u realize
that all your motivation and passion has been swept away.. nothing left..
and u know... that self realization is two words not known in that environment
and when u realise.. that u can no longer hold that straight fake face
u think u’re strong enough.. but u’re wrong..
u think u’re stoic.. but hey, i just found out ‘bout that one word.. never knew it existed..
and now u find yourself screaming
screaming to yourself
hang in there!
hang in there!
just a little bit more..
if God is willing, u’ll have a year to breathe the air of freedom
freedom which will be filled with much hardwork and competition
but at least u know for sure that it would be good for u
and then u’ll come back to that cage
for another two years
and when the two-year ends
will u have enough courage to find another place?
or would u be too weary to face anything?
who knows..
all u know that
right now, u have to fight for that one year of freedom
right now..
wanna know what happened 10 months later?
see http://ritaaza.blogspot.com/2012/01/personal-blog-one-point-in-time-part-2.html
see http://ritaaza.blogspot.com/2012/01/personal-blog-one-point-in-time-part-2.html
