Saturday, August 22, 2020

independence...

17 August 2020
4.53PM

Getting a bit restless this past few weeks
Things aren’t going well with this 'work from home 24/7' thing..
Before covid, whenever I feel like I need to vent, I used to go traveling with a small group of friends
To recharge, to find strength to face another day at the office
But now I can’t do that anymore
Sigh..

Well..
I’ve always felt that I don’t belong (since my first years working in that place)
Mostly because of all the extroverted behaviours that I have to endure
Working in an environment that rewards extroverted behaviour
Makes me mentally-exhausted
Really.. there’s no room from introverts

Working from home for about 5 months now
I realize more and more that this is not the place for me
And I really really wanna get away from all this

But..
There’s nothing I can do
I have to face it and live with it
Coz I need the money..
Sigh..

Well, this is august 17th
So I have to say: Happy independence day!

Hope I can feel free and independent someday
Hope someday..
I can make money by doing something that I love

Hope someday..
I can be my true self
Without ever feeling “not good enough”
Without always being overlooked and undervalued


At the end of the day..
I just wanna be surrounded by genuine people

Is it too much to ask?



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