suatu sore menjelang akhir Februari 2016
i don’t care .... 2nd edition
different person
totally different situation
but one thing remains the same..
i don’t care
''aku ga peduli''
aku ga peduli sama dia
ga mau berusaha utk peduli
dan ga mau pura-pura peduli
katanya, dia juga lagi kecewa, lagi sedih,
lagi butuh teman
tp knapa jadi aku yg harus ngertiin dia
knapa jadi aku yg harus memaklumi dia
we hardly even spoke to each other before
all this happened
knapa tiba-tiba aku
harus jadi temennya dia
''dia negatif banget''
aku juga bukan orang yang positif
ga pernah bisa jadi orang yang positif
maka ketika aku bisa bilang seseorang itu
negatif
maka berarti dia amat sangat negatif
dan entah kenapa dia sangat semangat utk
men-share kenegatifannya itu
‘’I'm only telling you this for your own good’’, he
says
Well, whatever your motivation is, I need u to
back off for now
Coz I got my own problem
And coz I’m still trying to heal myself
And I just simply don’t have the time and the energy
to respond to that kind of negativism
''cuekin aja''
bener
bener banget
tapi..
easier said than done
when words are already written and spoken,
I cannot pretend that I didn’t read or hear it
I just need him to back off
Coz I don’t care about him
''aku jahat?''
entah..
mungkin..
but I’m just human..
I’m no angel..
And I just don’t want to care
Meanwhile.... I think I’m getting grumprier
and grumpier by the day
So first and foremost, I have to take care of myself.. and calm myself
down
